{"id":1453,"date":"2016-11-18T10:48:00","date_gmt":"2016-11-18T09:48:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/blogg.svenskakyrkan.se\/duromoll\/?p=1453"},"modified":"2016-11-18T10:48:00","modified_gmt":"2016-11-18T09:48:00","slug":"varfor","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/blogg.svenskakyrkan.se\/duromoll\/2016\/11\/18\/varfor\/","title":{"rendered":"Varf\u00f6r?"},"content":{"rendered":"

Vadan och varth\u00e4n? Varf\u00f6r kliver jag upp idag?<\/p>\n

Hur g\u00f6r man n\u00e4r intentionen \u00e4r god men allt bara blir fel? Hur \u00e4ndrar man sina banor och bryter\/byter tr\u00e5k-m\u00f6nster?<\/p>\n

G\u00e5r i terapi? Har jag gjort, i flera \u00e5r och har insett att det \u00e4r ett livsprojekt att bringa Lottas skuta p\u00e5 r\u00e4tt k\u00f6l… eller beh\u00e5lla henne flytande. Just nu gungar det bet\u00e4nkligt.<\/p>\n

G\u00e5r p\u00e5 yoga? Det g\u00f6r jag varannan\/var tredje dag.<\/p>\n

\u00c4ter r\u00e4tt? Det g\u00f6r jag hela tiden. R\u00e4tt mycket samt mycket r\u00e4tt.<\/p>\n

Sover bra? Nja.<\/p>\n

Sitter vid orgeln och spelar Bach och koraler? Hm. G\u00f6r jag bara ibland. Det vill jag absolut g\u00f6ra mer.<\/p>\n

G\u00e5r promenader? Det g\u00f6r jag hela tiden.<\/p>\n

\"2016-09-29-10-39-00\"

Ur djupen ropar jag till dig!<\/p><\/div>\n

Mitt hum\u00f6r pendlar fr\u00e5n det m\u00f6rkaste m\u00f6rka till en strimma tillf\u00f6rsikt f\u00f6r att sedan dimpa ner i det m\u00f6rkaste m\u00f6rka igen. Ur djupen ropar jag till dig. I sanning. Det g\u00e5r inte s\u00e4rskilt bra. … det g\u00e5r nog bra att ropa, men jag f\u00e5r inte s\u00e5 m\u00e5nga svar. Famlar i mina dimmor. Helt pl\u00f6tsligt tror jag att jag \u00e4r p\u00e5 r\u00e4tt k\u00f6l, men s\u00e5 dr\u00e5sar jag i asfalten igen med besked. Pang, bara.<\/p>\n

Jag f\u00e5r v\u00e4l kravla runt d\u00e4r nere i mitt el\u00e4nde och se om jag hittar n\u00e5n stig. Ett gr\u00e4sstr\u00e5 kanske.<\/p>\n

Ja, jag vet, jag har en underbar familj och goda v\u00e4nner som hj\u00e4lper mig bara jag ber om det. \u00c4nd\u00e5 vet jag ingen r\u00e5d. Visst jag h\u00f6r allt positivt och ser allt fint, men mina \u00f6gon \u00e4r grumliga.<\/p>\n

G\u00e5 i ide? En god id\u00e9, men det g\u00e5r inte. Ledig helg? Ja… det g\u00e5r inte heller s\u00e5 bra. Jag har sv\u00e5rt att koppla av.<\/p>\n

\"2016-09-21-12-07-15\"

Min harpa.<\/p><\/div>\n

Spela nyckelharpa. Ja, det kan jag g\u00f6ra och bli lite lycklig… eller forts\u00e4tta f\u00f6rs\u00f6ka vara lycklig. Kanske att Moll-\u00e4lvan b\u00f6rjar dansa igen. Lycka \u00e4r ett st\u00e4llningstagande. Jag har allt och egentligen ingen anledning till gn\u00e4ll. Jag \u00e4r lyckligt ledsen… eller ledset lycklig. Ledset lycklig \u00e4r en bra definition.<\/p>\n

Jag \u00e4r tr\u00f6tt, helt enkelt. Lite otajmat att vara tr\u00f6tt redan innan advent. Gud, giv mig styrka. Amen.<\/p>\n

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