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Nej, fr\u00e5n dig kommer allt, och det vi givit \u00e5t dig har vi f\u00e5tt ur din hand.<\/p>\nF\u00f6rsta Kr\u00f6nikeboken kapitel 29<\/cite><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Genom bussens f\u00f6nster s\u00e5g jag h\u00f6sttr\u00e4den visa upp sig. L\u00e4ngs med v\u00e4gen stod de uppradade; st\u00e5tliga, h\u00f6gresliga, i sprakande skrud. Och jag t\u00e4nkte; \u201cVad har jag och g\u00f6ra med dessa tr\u00e4d?\u201d Ingenting. Jag har ingenting att g\u00f6ra med att de st\u00e5r h\u00e4r. De bara st\u00e5r. Och jag \u00e5ker f\u00f6rbi. Och dessa tr\u00e4d har ingenting med mig att g\u00f6ra. Jag \u00e4r bara en f\u00f6rbipasserande som f\u00f6rundras. \u00d6ver det stora i deras existens. Och hur lite de bryr sig om mig. Vad jag g\u00f6r. Eller vad jag tycker. Ingenting. Ingenting vill tr\u00e4den av mig. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I famnen vilade hans huvud. Jag satt upp och lyssnade, han l\u00e5g ner och var f\u00f6rsjunken i en annan v\u00e4rld. Och f\u00f6r en stund m\u00f6ttes vi. Kontakt; \u00f6gon som m\u00f6ttes och vilade i leenden av k\u00e4rlek. Denna m\u00e4nniska, en helt egen. Han har ingenting med mig att g\u00f6ra. Han \u00e4r ett st\u00e5tligt m\u00e4sterverk helt i sig sj\u00e4lv. Jag kan bara titta, och f\u00f6rundras. Hans existens \u00e4r stor. Den handlar inte om mig. Hans existens, hans kraft och lust f\u00f6r livet; de vill ingenting av mig. Ingenting. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det \u00e4r kv\u00e4ll och m\u00f6rkret har lagt sig \u00f6ver hemmen. Det \u00e4r dags att l\u00e4mna dagen som varit. Den som passerat. Den gjorde det helt utan min inblandning. Det blev morgon, det blev middag och det blev kv\u00e4ll. Och ingenting hade jag att g\u00f6ra med timmarna som passerade. Dygnets rytm, m\u00f6rkret och ljusets turtagande, det handlar inte om mig. Jag f\u00e5r vila i att det inte handlar om mig. Jag f\u00e5r vila. Jag f\u00e5r. Vila.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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