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Mitt hus skall kallas ett b\u00f6nens hus f\u00f6r alla folk.<\/p>\nMarkusevangeliet kapitel 11<\/cite><\/blockquote>\n\n\n\n

Kan man leva ett liv utan att tro att det finns n\u00e5gon mening med allt?
\u00c4r det d\u00e4r lyckan och tryggheten finns? I \u00f6vertygelsen om att ingenting spelar n\u00e5gon roll, f\u00f6r att ingenting b\u00e4r en mening? Kan man leva och k\u00e4nna sig n\u00f6jd med att vi \u00e4r h\u00e4r av slump och evolution och att v\u00e5ra liv inte \u00e4r n\u00e5got mer \u00e4n resultatet av en rad tillf\u00e4lligheter? Att vi f\u00f6ds och att vi d\u00f6r och att allt det vi g\u00f6r under v\u00e5ra liv inte spelar n\u00e5gon som helst roll. Inte hur vi \u00e4lskar. Inte hur vi hatar. \u00d6mma smekningar eller ord som sk\u00e4r i sj\u00e4len. Inget spelar n\u00e5gon roll. Det \u00e4r bara att h\u00e4rja p\u00e5. Kan man vara lycklig med tanken om att livet inte b\u00e4r p\u00e5 n\u00e5got st\u00f6rre v\u00e4rde? Kan man leva om det inte finns en mening med n\u00e5gonting?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jag k\u00e4nner mig matt.
Mitt s\u00f6kande, tvivlande och korta \u00f6gonblick av tro \u00e4r slitsamt. \u00c4rligt talat s\u00e5 vill jag ge upp r\u00e4tt ofta. Kasta in handduken och ansluta mig till de d\u00e4r \u00f6vertygade m\u00e4nniskorna. Till de som s\u00e4ger att det inte finns n\u00e5gon Gud, att allt bara \u00e4r barnsliga fantasier och att livet inte \u00e4r mer \u00e4n att \u201c\u00e4ta, jobba, sova, d\u00f6\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Det k\u00e4nns som en tyngd i hela kroppen. Att jag \u00e4r korkad och att livet \u00e4r fult. Kn\u00e4na viker sig under mig och jag sjunker ihop i en h\u00f6g av skam och tvivel; hur kan jag skriva och prata om de h\u00e4r fr\u00e5gorna? Om tvivlet, s\u00f6kandet och tron. Om Gud och livet, och om de kan f\u00e5 plats h\u00e4r och nu s\u00e5 att sj\u00e4len inte ekar tom eller skriker av frustration.
Hur kan jag s\u00e4ga att jag tror att detta \u00e4r viktigt, inte bara f\u00f6r mig men \u00e4ven f\u00f6r andra? Hur kan jag? Vem tror du att du \u00e4r Martina?<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cMitt hus skall kallas ett b\u00f6nens hus f\u00f6r alla folk\u201d s\u00e4ger Jesus n\u00e4r han pratar om templet i dagens evangelietext. Undrar vilka han menar med \u201calla\u201d? Sina l\u00e4rjungar? De \u00f6vertygande? Oss som sitter med hopsjunkna kroppar och inte f\u00e5r ihop, typ n\u00e5gonting alls?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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